But I was so determined that it didn't matter one bit. So I started. I started reading up on all the free websites I could find. I bought a few muscle magazines to see if they had any tips. I forked out a weeks wage on some protein powder that claimed to make muscle building a breeze. I even had a weight training program designed for me by the gym instructor. Then I hit it hard. I was in the gym all the time. I was broke because of the supplements and the gym fees, but I didn't really care. I knew my dream body was around the corner and some of the big problems in my life would slowly drift away. But it didn't happen. After a couple of months of following the advice of the people in internet forums, muscle mags and even the gym instructor, I still looked the same. I wasn't skinny, I wasn't fat, I was skinny fat. Imagine having almost no muscles and a beer gut too. The Buddha had turned into ET. Try and imagine how low I felt ...